martedì, aprile 25, 2006

25 Aprile....wherever we are

Actually this picture is from the 24. Was a day of summer. A nice present for all of us! And I wasn't working!
Well the day after,that was holiday for everybody...the rain was impossible for more than half day! Happens!
But the afternoon of the 25 was very nice.
We went for a walk on the beach.
The temperature was nice, not
On sunday Andrea had the "garden attack"! So now we have lots of new green friends, outside and inside. But this one is a very special one. Is an erica and of course is in my garden for a reason!
With love for Erika!

Kimboz at Himatangi poetic!
"O per AWESOME!!!!"
In this picture he's soooo cooool!

I'm the one on the right and he's on the left (the "10 past 10"print!)

But life is like this picture. Million of different track...wich one is the best to follow? When is the right moment to change? Why I always want to know all the different options? Is that wrong? Where or when is the point you have to say stop? Or maybe is right to don't stop?
Yesterday I was listening the song of the Queen "I want it all". Sometimes I'm like that "I want it all, I want it now, and I don't get compromise". Other times is bit harder...I need someone who tells me what to do, so if I make mistake I don't have to blame myself....I sholud learn to be stronger and take the right decision for me.
And walk as much as I can, so no more track will be a mistery or a far away desire.......

venerdì, aprile 21, 2006

It's not enough

I just woke up. It's 10 pm. I went to bed around 6 after work, and probably now I'll go out to have a quite drink for a colleague leaving. Like that I'll be able to have enough sleep to work tomorrow morning at 5:30.
Bad feeling.
Orrible feeling.
I woke up alone without realizing what time was and most important why I was alone.
He told me that he spoke with me and I also answer him...I don't remember...and today It's not funny at all.
Lately I just have this feeling of not being enough.
Not good enough when I work, not good enough with my relationship, not good enough for my friend.
Just not good enough.
It's not nice.
Why I go to bed early at night?
Well not always because I'm already tired (at least not always), just because I know I have to wake up @ 6 the morning after.
Why I don't go out in the week-end?
Well not because I'm an anti-social animal. Just because I have to work the morning after most of the times.
Why Am I doing this?
Good question.
Maybe because I want to keep my job? 'cause I like it?
People seems to do not understand it.
And it hurts.
Or maybe 'cause I'm just not enough.
Why am I in New Zealand?
Great question........

martedì, aprile 18, 2006

Crossing the Tongariro (1)

Easter break is a nice time to go around and use some advices people tell You when work swallow all of Your free time. Plus lately bench work, that i fancy more, has been slow until (hopefully) this week, so I've been trying to be in the office reading and getting updated on the work yet to come.
This means that I stayed a lot of time sitting in my office chair and watching into a computer screen.
The idea of spending a weekend outside was then very appealing, and I decided to propose the Tongariro Crossing, for this past two days.
Barby was molten by an excruciating working week, so i let her sleep for the afternoon of friday and started worrying at about 6.30 p.m. when she didn't want to wake up. When i tried to move her in bed to let her stand and finally talk about this project of mine, she told me to get in the line, that she had heaps of work, and I should have waited my turn. Later she claimed she was dreaming (mmhhh).
Well, eventually she gets up, and we start planning (I do it, while she nods unconvincingly).
We (Barbs) decide to have dinner and (me) to start looking on the internet for a place to stay.
After some effort we manage to
1) eat some nice steak with good wine
2) find a place for 20$ a night at Ohakune, where the landlord leaves the door open and we can arrive anytime in the night (night here starts very early, at about 9.00 p.m.).
We leave and we find the cabin heated and cosy. We then decide to join the sleeping bags and sleep in one single bed. I wake up early with B's elbow in the ribs, tired and weak.
As soon as we reach National Park we realise that the bus that leaves you on one side od the walk and recovers on the other side the exhausted hikers left about two hours b4.
We decide then (after a short discussion) that we might do something for that first day and then do the crossing the sunday.
Saturday then continued with a huge "Kiwi breakfast" (same as english breakfast but in New Zealand) and the booking of a night at the hostel. There the bus will leave us (the morning after) to the track beginning.
The day was quite pleasant with a pretty easy walk to the Taranaki falls (I wonder why the name, since mount Taranaki is not right behind the corner... very nice trip, though).
The day completes with a grocery shopping in a nearby town where we discovered we already have been about one year ago, ragged and desperate after a night out in the car. There is a very nice cafe there, though, and I decide to eat a cheese scone.
We spend a nice time wandering around and eating dinner, preparing sandwiches for tomorrow and so on.
During the night at about 2.30 a.m. the night trembles to the sound of incredible yells coming from the hostel, somewhere.
Barby grunts in the sleep and , to my dismay, turns from my shoulder to the other side, leaving me with someone screaming in something that sounded Danish or so, and awake.

venerdì, aprile 07, 2006


730 days ago we kissed each other for the first time (actually you tryed 2 days before but without success...if I think about it now I just want to laugh!!) .
So many things happened during these days... but even today I'm happy to see you after a long day at work.I still like to think about you. I still like to think when we're gonna to see each other againg and you'll hug me. I still like to think that your hand will touch my face before falling asleep.
It's incredible and fabulous that we still have things to talk about, minchiate (sorry it's untranslatable!) to laugh about...this is the best....think that you'll always have something new in the future. Something to live for and ready to discover!

Even if:
  1. You snore and I have to shake you to stop you!
  2. Sometimes you are stick with your pc and nobody can take your attention
  3. You're not tidy (well sometimes me too!)
  4. You don't clean (well yes it can happen I don't clean either..but just because I'm tired!)
  5. You never give me the satisfaction to be right( yes...true...I like it a bit, but I can't tell you otherwise you're gonna take advantage of it!)
  6. You always have to be right (but I'm even worst than you, so "intappi duro"!)
  7. You're a bitch! (see n 5!)
  8. You earn more than me!!!
Well I also have to admit that somethimes (really rare) I can be difficoult too, like:
  1. When I don't put the food in the fridge
  2. When I kill the flyes (fu%*#ng insects!!!)
  3. When I feel asleep in 45 seconds
  4. When I'm jealous
  5. When I'm hateful (but you too!)
  6. When I've got my crisis
  7. When I use to wake up in the middle of the night to go to work (well... here you should blame Mr. Novotel!)
  8. When sometimes I'm "liscia"(but you too!)
Mmmmmm...maybe I forget something but we have the point!

For this, for may other reason, and for some kind of magic thing that keep us together
I think I......
......ok you understand it's not necessary to say everything, don't you think?!

P.S. just remember that a d......d is forever!!!